Standstill

It's been a while since I have written down anything that goes through my head. So much has changed, but so little really.
I have finally settled here in my school, the people are growing on me. I just feel like my mind is clouded. I went down to Haig yesterday, saw O, we're dating now by the way.. Feels so weird saying that. Am I doing the right thing?
Its so sad how my love for these people depends on how much I want to love someone at this point in my life. I don't even know if there are real feelings.

ah my fucking time ran out,
mind paid to rememberance day.